recent ponderings

"they that know Thee not may call upon Thee as other than Thou art, and so worship not Thee but a creature of their own fancy; therefore enlighten our minds that we may know Thee as thou art, so that we may perfectly love Thee and worthily praise Thee." - A.W. Tozer

So since it appears that I only have 2 followers on this blog, I'll have no fear in sharing something a little less on the surface, or at least try too.

From studying a series with some friends last week, reading this, Tozer raises the questions, When I think of God, who do I think and believe Him to be? What are the thoughts that fill my mind?

I close my eyes for a bit, "creator of the universe...my father...my savior."

Well these are all things that I know, they come from my head. But what do I feel when I think of Him? I cant seem to feel anything right now, and I don't like it. I want more than the thoughts and knowledge. Its ultimately a lack of intimacy with the God I want to know more of. I haven't spent quality alone time with God in a while. How can this discipline problem be broken? I constantly crave Him, yet I don't draw near to Him. I desire intimacy yet I don't allow it. Break me of this habit oh God. I know you are closer than my breath, and its me that must draw nearer to you. Remove whatever it is thats keeping me so guarded.